Hello World!

Ok so I’ve made and re-made this blog a few times. Some things I have published / unpublished and then re-published. I’m learning about how to make a blog as well, so if things are not perfect, please bear with me.

Trigger warning #1: I am a terrible writer. Please be kind about it. I know I could write this blog with A.I., but I don’t want to, you can usually tell, and I want this to be real. Thanks! … Ok, I just re-read some of what I wrote and it’s sincerely quite terrible, so in the end I might give it a bit of an AI polish. We’ll see.

Trigger warning #2: I am quite shy about sharing. I’m not much of a writer and I am a perma-lurker and have not really participated in any forums. But I will, BECAUSE I am angry (and I know I’m not the only one). It is literally (actually not literally) criminal that flumazenil is not accessible to those who need it. Benzo withdrawal and protracted withdrawal are so common. It’s like we caused a problem and we have the solution, but refuse to use it. Big pharma has no incentives (flumazenil is off-patent, hence no money to be made), most doctors… well… there is a ton of stigma and even more disinformation/misinformation/confusion/fear-mongering regarding flumazenil treatment for both acute and protracted withdrawal. So yeah, I can only offer my own experience, but if I can help even one single person, I’m down.

So, this blog will be about my experience with benzodiazepines, benzo withdrawal, protracted/post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) / benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction (BIND), and my subsequent remission using flumazenil. I hope to share my experience (maybe also others’ experiences), but also the extensive research that I have done on the subject, my reflections, and self-experimentation.

I don’t want to be one of those who disappear after healing. I’m here. This is fresh, this is recent. I want to share. I want to help.